15 April 2006

Sadder but Wiser

Why is it that the things that make us wiser are often the things that hurt? There's a song in the Music Man called "The Sadder but Wiser Girl For Me". I guess that means I'm eligible. Haha. For anyone who's keeping track, I am officially single again. Apparently I have been for awhile, but because of the communication in the relationship had ABSOLUTELY no idea that was the case until yesterday. It was made crystal clear to me in an email that contradicted many of the things my esteemed gentleman friend had been telling me in real life. Such is life, I suppose.

GUYS: If you don't want to be in a relationship with a girl, it might be wise for you to tell her so WHEN YOU MAKE THAT DECISION and not belabor it via 3 weeks worth of the "relationship conversation" while still treating her like your girlfriend. ALSO, do not do this in an email or text message. Have the courtesy to actually talk to the young lady, face-to-face, if possible. Digital/electronic media are the coward's ways out, and she deserves better than that, whether or not you think so, because she is somebody's daughter, sister, friend, and you don't need a whole gaggle of people hating your stinking guts just because you didn't handle the situation properly.

Now, I have to say this... He is a wonderful man, and that's why I'm sad. He's revealed a lot to me about myself. My relationship with God is closer than it has been in years, since I was a little girl, and that's in no small part due to this guy. I have been happier than I thought possible while with him, and I've discovered what it is that I'm looking for in a Man with whom I'd like to share my life. I've rediscovered the things that used to be my dreams, and found that they still are. I've given up the self-deception I'd carried for years, and I've dealt with the things that have kept me from drawing close to God. I am altogether a different person than I was when we met, and while some of these changes have been coming for awhile, he sped their arrival. That's a lot to accomplish in just under 2 months.

Oh, and I've lost 10 pounds since we met (most of which in the last week or so), so that's good too.

Whatever life brings me, I know it will all work out in the end, because God promised me that. I just have to believe that God has a better plan for my life than I thought was possible with this man. Whatever He gives will be to glorify Him, and this apparently wasn't that.

May God bless each of you, today and always.
Much Love.

"The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord; and he delighteth in his way." Ps. 37:23

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